Bad Days Aren't All Bad/21 Months

I haven't bragged on my little smarty pants lately.  This kid, I tell ya.  She has to be the smartest kid in the world.  As of late we are using 3 word phrases such as "me do it" and "no, mine mama".  Fun little phrases that keep you on your toes.  And let me tell you, Abby Grace is a coloring machine if it has a point and will mark on paper she is drawing with.  I caught her drawing a lovely picture in my rented Capstone text book yesterday, yay!  Gotta love how she knew that was the only book I rented this semester. 

 
Speaking of books and Capstone, this is my last semester!!! I will graduate with my BA with an accounting concentration in May.  I am super excited, but am also considering going ahead and getting my masters while I am already in the habit of studying and test taking.

I was starting to worry about AG and lego's a while back.  One of the milestones a few months ago was being able to stack at least 3 blocks, well Abby Grace knew that they could be stacked, but she wanted nothing to do with blocks other than to knock over what someone else was building, until recently that is.  Saturday she brought me a 20 block structure that she declared "prippy" before destroying it.  (***Disclaimer***I know every child is different, but we have soared through milestones and we totally missed this one, I do not freak out about these things.)

We do a lot of cooking together, mainly because she chants "pancakes mama" or "beans" every time she wakes up or feels a hunger pain, thankfully we are getting really good at adding fruit and other goodies to our pancakes to help with the bland, carb filled, piece of goodness they are and she will eat pretty much any bean and rice combo you give her. 

My favorite thing that this little bitty does right now is try and change her own diaper, it is hilarious to watch her try and position it just right to sit down on.  She hasn't managed to catch one yet, but we are working on potty training!!

Just to brag a little more...Abby can also count to 10, recognize a square, circle, triangle, star, and diamond, we are working on rectangles, and sing the first 4 letters of the ABC song.  She recognizes an A, but no other letter, all the other letters are E's when you ask her.  Abby will choose the right color if you ask her to, but if you ask her the name of the color everything is "geen" or "bu".

I taught my daughter something the other day that I didn't realize she didn't know.  Saturday morning I snatched open the kitchen curtains and declared that it was "sunshine time".  Abby has been talking about sunshine all week.  I love the bright light that comes through our back door and now my little bitty is loving it too.  My favorite part about these doors is that they are right where I stand to fold laundry so the floor is warm on cold days while I stand there. :)

I am so excited for Abby's 2nd Birthday!!!  I think we are going to have a Dora (Dorry) ice cream party.  A recently watched episode with ice cream hill is our inspiration for now...have you seen how people make cute ice cream cone cupcakes by turning the cone upside down on the frosting?  Too cute.

I am blogging to distract myself right now so I am sorry if this seems random.  I had a bad day.  I missed a step in one problem on my advanced accounting test and completely missed another problem, there were only 4 so that's kind of a big deal for my grade.  I stopped by work and was told that in 4-6 weeks we will be downsizing.  And last, but not least I received the diagnosis of enlarged thyroid and was sent for a prompt ultrasound. 

Yesterday I went to my NP because my throat was so tight I just knew I had an infection of some sort.  I had been feeling this way since Monday, but didn't think anything about it because I have constant sinus issues. Well, by yesterday, Wednesday, I would rather mop my drool than swallow and it was difficult to turn my head.  My neck was also very tender to the touch.  I actually had to think about swallowing to be able to do it, scary right? 

When I got to the NP my blood pressure was slightly elevated and my resting (10 minutes sitting still) heart rate was 106!!  A little high.  I was examined and swabbed for strep.  The NP returned and let me know that I was fine other than she was pretty sure that the problem was my thyroid.  Her prediction was that my thyroid was so swollen that it was pressing on my airway and causing me to have difficulty swallowing. I already had an OB appointment today for my thyroid, so I wasn't too worried about follow-up.

 I took some ibuprofen for the swelling and was immediately able to eat my lunch without struggle.  I started to freak out a little bit, so Dr. Google and I made an appointment to read about this issue and  I went to my OB today.  He listened to my page long list of issues and diagnosed me with enlarged thyroid and sent me for an ultrasound and more blood work.  That is scary business.  Who knows whats going on in that little blurry picture that the woman is measuring and clicking on all while silently eye balling you.  Never racking!!! 

So, now I wait.  I have a follow-up appointment in 2 weeks.  Please say prayers that everything is fine and my thyroid can be helped with steroids.  I talked to a Dr. friend tonight and he said that because my airway was affected that they may have to remove it, but that may not be the case.  I have had issues with hypothyroidism for years, I think I was diagnosed 6 years ago, but should have had treatment much earlier.  Since having Abby Grace my levels have been uncontrolled, needing lab draws and dose changes every 6 weeks so I knew something was wrong.  Waiting and waiting...

As for a job, I feel a weird sense of ok-ness about that.  I don't know what the answer will be, but I have some good letters of recommendations from my current boss and professors and I am excited to do something new that I wouldn't have left my job to do otherwise.  However, this does affect my health insurance, again pray for no serious problems with my thyroid. 

I am excited to have some good leads, via professors and friends, that I can follow-up on next week.  It is all still a little stinging and fresh right now.  I feel for my boss, she has worked so hard to now have to downsize.  She is one of the hardest working people I have ever met and I admire her determination. 

And my last contributing factor to this bad day...the advanced accounting test, well let me tell you, when you are liquidating a company, and working on a distribution schedule, you should make final distributions prior to recognizing withdrawals by the partners.  Lesson learned.  The other problem I missed, well, I wasn't the only lost student.  I got a call from a friend later and as he said "screw it" I don't know how to do that one.  I think that is fitting.  I had no clue and did what I could.

I finished out my day at the March of Dimes kick-off for 2013.  It made my day much better to be 60+ people who are excited to raise money for a wonderful cause.  I love working on the committee and helping the community realize just how much each and every baby benefits from the MOD.

Now that I have finished my long drawn out ramblings for the night I do feel much better.  I haven't cried all day and I need a place to put all this. I am good now, I am focused on finding a new opportunity for myself.  I will better myself through this opportunity. 

**This post was not written to gain pity, just to get my feelings out.

***Odd thought, I just felt the urge to sign my post LYLAS.  What grade am I in?  Must be about 4th.